I began this blog as an outlet, which I clearly lost sight of… I should have kept it up and I plan to do so. Again, I have been working for the last three years as a Division 1 assistant coach and am transitioning out of coaching currently. A part of me wants to stay in it, fight for the passion, and a part of me feels as if I’m being lead somewhere else. Now, this could mean somewhere back in the same profession or it could mean I am meant to lead elsewhere.
I have always been told “you’re so good with athletes” “you’re so kind and helpful” “you’re very good at what you do” and yet, here I am moving towards a change and down a different road.
So me being a human being, I first feel sorry for myself (as we all do to some degree). And then I am soon reminded by no one other than God himself that I need to be where my feet are.
He sends me very simple reminders: a random text from a friend, unpacking a box and finding a picture of a time I was happy or sad (always a good reminder either way), having my newly-blind dog find his way to me while I’m crying (will post my dudes story soon)…
Whatever it is that reminds me, I know that a lot of people struggle with change. We struggle with our identity… WHO AM I? WHO AM I MEANT TO BE? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?
I am currently changing my identity and let me tell you, it HAS NOT been easy.
My newish fiancé is really trying to find common ground with my highs and lows but she is still here, oh did I mention I am engaged to another woman? Not that this is an issue by any means but my identity has always been something I had to figure out by myself. In the here and now, WHERE MY FEET ARE.
My workouts, my food, my writing, my reading, decisions I make, friends I choose to call… all of these needs to align with what I want. Where I am.
I am excited about my future;
We are moving in together, we are newly vegan (will post about at another time) and we are newly engaged (I can also add our engagement story in another post). And I am finding out what I am made of, outside of collegiate athletics… which has consumed my life for the last 21 years.
At the end of everyday,
God is so good. He gives me grace and He will continue to lead me and my heart – and for that I am thankful.
Love, Joy, Happiness Always (well most of the time)
Be Where Your Feet Are. 